Saturday, September 29, 2012
Should I stay or should I go...thoughts on moving and purpose
38After leaving the synagogue he entered Simon's house. Now Simon's mother-in-law was suffering from a high fever, and they asked him about her. 39Then he stood over her and rebuked the fever, and it left her. Immediately she got up and began to serve them.
40As the sun was setting, all those who had any who were sick with various kinds of diseases brought them to him; and he laid his hands on each of them and cured them. 41Demons also came out of many, shouting, "You are the Son of God!" But he rebuked them and would not allow them to speak, because they knew that he was the Messiah.
42At daybreak he departed and went into a deserted place. And the crowds were looking for him; and when they reached him, they wanted to prevent him from leaving them. 43But he said to them, "I must proclaim the good news of the kingdom of God to the other cities also; for I was sent for this purpose." 44So he continued proclaiming the message in the synagogues of Judea.
I find it a struggle to choose between building roots and staying open to the Spirit, movable, flexible. I think there is a time and place for each and I have had to remind myself of this anytime I get the whim to move on when I know in my soul I am meant to stay or the desire to stay when I know I must move. I have never been good at making decisions but I have learned that God will help me - in ways that never seem obvious, or come at the times I want them to - but I always really know, in some way, which way I am being led. If I am open to the Spirit. If I am constant in prayer and seeking. When I realize my purpose - or at least take baby steps forward trusting that I am living it out to the best of my ability, I find that God is faithful and I can trust the feelings that guide me. Others may complain and want me to stay, or maybe want me to leave, but we are called for a purpose, and that does not always align with logic or the will of the crowd.